Tuesday, April 29, 2008


I guess I have been in a blogging slump for a bit now. Do you ever have times in your life where your brain is swirling so fast and you are mulling over so many things, that your brain just becomes mush?!?! That is where I am at right now.
I feel like God is showing so much to me that I just can't keep up. And honestly, there are many times through this process that I just want to crawl back into bed and pull the sheets over my head and wish it all away. But, then what would I be missing? I would miss Him trying to give me more of who is He is. I would miss all the lessons He is trying to teach me. I would miss the healing - even if it is extremely painful.
And on that note...why is healing so painful anyway! It makes sense that it would hurt to get the wounds in the first place. And it makes sense that the surgery hurts. But why does the healing have to hurt too? Shouldn't the healing of our hearts be soothing, comforting, reassuring!?!? Sometimes it feels like the healing even hurts worse. Thank you Lord, that is by your wounds that we are healed!
I have been thinking over this verse for a bit now. James 1:2 says "consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds..." What did that just say?!?!? Come on now- "pure joy" - can't we just endure or try to survive? Having the joy is easy to talk about and want to do and believe in your head. But then when the trials come there are many days I do not want to consider this with pure joy! I am finding that the only way to have that pure joy is from God. He is the only one who can give it! As I let go, rest, let my brain turn to mush - He can and does bring pure joy! It is only by His strength, definately not my own.
Well, enough pondering for tonight...my thoughts are swirling again!


The Aldridge's said...

I completely agree with what you shared. There are times (like now with all that is going on here) that I think the trials are the only way I really learn. While at least part of that is true, I wish it didn't have to be that way.

Enjoy being in His presence!


Valerie said...

I have been reading through the Extreme Devotion daily devotional recently, thinking and pondering about trials. The stories of faith and suffering somehow are inspiring and strengthening. One of the comments that stick out in my mind is a comment made by someone who had been released from prison saying that they missed prison and the sufferings they faced for believing because those sufferings brought them into the presence of Christ, forcing them into a wonderful prayer relationship. What perspective -- "consider it all joy that you face trials of many kinds". . . brings new perspective to that verse. I wish I had that kind of perspective (just would like to avoid the suffering part ;-). I am kind of whoosy.

Kelli said...

Hey there Meleea, thanks for the insights on healing. I agree, I've been thinking the same think lately. I have a few things to do to continue on my walk of healing and it seems it would be much less painful to just continue on and avoid the surgery/healing altogether! I mean, if it doesn't hurt now, why go and pursue that pain? Anyhow, I'm with you on this whole thing but Praise God He understands the bigger picture!

meleea said...

Kelli - thanks for the comment. i would love to be invited to your blog. it does seem crazy to invite that type of pain into your heart - but when you can allow it in it will bring so much freedom, even though it is painful. thankfully everyone is in the same process of letting go - though it may look different for everyone - and we can support each other through it!

Kelli said...

Sure, what is your email address?

Shannon said...

It does seem strange...the idea of experiencing pure joy in the midst of pain. But I can honestly say that I HAVE. It was a time where my faith was greatly increased and obedience was key.
I pray that God will bring the joy for you.

Feathering My Nest said...

This is how I have been feeling. I love this post. Thank you.